Our expert says:
Its important, firstly, that decisions about what meds to use ( and the initial disgnosis ) in Bipolar Disorder, should ONLY be done by a specialist psychiatrist, and not a GP.
Secondly, it should usually be possible for such a specialist, working with you, to identify meds that will usefully help to control the disorder, without intolerable side-effects.
It sounds as though the main issue might not have been specific actual medication side-effects, but the reaction you had to experiencing side-effects, your fears and apprehension about needing meds, and suchlike. These concerns must be properly discussed with your shrink, and a psychologist could usefully help you to understand and handle such issues.
You're not a loser at all. But if Bipolar Disorder was properly disagnosed, it does need proper treatment to limit the disruption it can otherwise cause to your life.
I'm not clear, from your message, whether you took the meds at all ; but if you did take them for a while and then suddenly stopped, you could be experiencing withdrawal effects from some of them, adding to how wretched you currently feel.
Without meds and expertly advised treatment, including meds, the risk of needing to be in hospital again will increase, whereas proper use of meds may keep you out of hospital.
If you're worried about being able to remember and share all relevant details with the shrink, try jotting them down on paper ( not too long-winded, mind you !) and give him a copy to read, as well as using a copy for yourself to help remember questions you have.
You're not in any trouble in the usual sense of those words, but maybe you're letting some of your fears push you towards decisions that aren't quite the best for you.
Don't feel alone ; many people share this condition and its related problems. And shrinks are there to be helpful and should have the skill to put you at your ease, especially if you reveal how scared you are feeling.
With the right treatment ( and, admittedly,it might take a little while for you with your shrink's help, to find the right combination ) you ened be no burdern to anyone else, o to yourself
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