Our expert says:
I'm puzzled by your message, and the false sense of inevitability in it.
For instance, you assumed the only possibility in life is to get a bursary. And otherwise to sit at home twiddling your thumbs and waiting for one. Not so. Many people over the years have chosen, for instance, to go straight to work, earning as much as they could so as to be able to afford the courses of their choice and gain life and work experience ( ANY job can be useful to you if you learn from it rather than just grumbling ).
And you have made choices, very understandable ones, but not inevitable ones.
Some of us spent our years at university working in the vacations, eating mostly what one could buy discounted as stale when shops sold out at the end of the week, rarely drinking because we couldnt afford it, walking or bussing when we had some cash, rather than even dreaming of getting a car. We rented cheap accomodation without imagining buying a house, and took great care not to have children - until we were established in o ur career and could really afford it. Its possible.
I am still surprised ( I was a Deputy Dean for a while ) when a student complains of serious financial problems, and grumbles about how had it is to afford a skiing holiday or trip to Mauritius.
In your message I hear a lot about what you hate or at least don't want, and still have no clear idea what it is you like or want.
There's a curious sense of dissatisfaction, such as when you say : " Unfortunately by the time I finished I was in a role where I was happy." Unfortunate to be happy ?
You speak of having a scarce skill that pays well ( whatever it is ) yet you apparently hate this skill, and have already spent or committed whatever it pays.
YOu apparently already run some small business in your spare time - isn't this where you can do the creative and entrepreneurial stuff you want ?
Its not easy, but it's possible.
Yes, only an idiot would tell you it's easy. Why does it have to be so hard ? Well, if it were really easy, absolutely everybody would do it, and there's be no sense of achievement, and very little profit, financially or emotionally.
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