Our expert says:
It does indeed sound very much as though you are suffering from some disorder following the rape that was not effecively dealt with at the time. Panic disorder, perhaps, maybe also PTSD. Sometimes these conditions start soon after the original trauma, sometimes they come on later.
The symptoms you describe, though in some ways they may seem many and varied, all make excellent sense as symptoms of a severe anxiety and panic attack. PTSD more typically, though it can include such symptoms as these, will include flashbacks and unpleasantly sharp memories of the trauma / rape, and symptoms coming on when circumstances remind you of the trauma - when something looks, smells, sounds, reminiscent of the original events.
In any case, you do need to see a good local psychiatrist for a proper and detailed assessment and a discussion of your treamtment options. In my experience this is most effective when it includes medicines which are also used to treat depression ( whether or not you are actually depressed as well ) and ALSO a special form of counselling from a psychologist with experience in this area, called CBT, Cognitive-behaviour Therapy ). Be assertive in getting the assessment and advice you need and deserve, and with proper treatment you should be gaining control over these ugly symptoms fairly soon, and gaining the ability to gradually put this behind you.
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