Our expert says:
Stabbing your spouse is a lot more than "ups and downs" , and the protection order was extremely sensible of him. Of course an apology was essential, but its surely understandable that he feels unable to again take the risk of having you around. See a counsellor / therapist yourself and sort out your own clear problems with aggression and other issues. When you are stable, and your therapiast thinks so as well as yopu, maybe you could send him a message telling him what you have done, and suggesting a meeting in a neutral place. But don't be surprised if he is unwilling ; so also work with your therapist on your own ability to learn from the experience and move on.
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