Our expert says:
This must be very distressing for you. And of course nobody can tell you why he is reacting in this unkind way, except him. I don't think you're "really paranoid", but tis could be related to the major depression you say you suffer from--- which I think should receive CBT style counselling, and not only medication. If you are feeling this upset, and even thinking of suicide, it's obvious your depression is not being properly treated yet. Make sure you see a good local psychiatrist for a second opinion and a full re-assessment, and make sure you tell him everything yopu've mentioned in this message
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