Our expert says:
Well, E, at this distance we cant tell you whether you are losing it, or have found it, or merely temporarily mislaid it.
Endometrioisis is a depressing thing to have, and depression from whatever cause makes any pain worse and harder to bear. Husterectomy can be an effective treatment, as you've surely been advised. I think it would be a good idea to get an assessment and a discussion of treatment options from a specialist psychiatrist rather than only a GP, to plan how best to prepare for surgery and to manage this depression.
YOu mention :abusing" your medication, which is of course never wise, and doesn't suggest this ia the best medication for you. Taking any antidepressant beyond the recommended dose has no likely benefits, and may cause different problems.
Sorry to hear your partner is being so unhelpful - men often feel overwhelmed by emotional probelms, and angry for no knowing how to be helpful, which is of course in itself very unhelpful.
DO see a proper psychiatrist as soon as possible, for re-assessment and treatment advice, and remember to ask about CBT style counselling / psychotherapy as well ass medications. You CAN definitely recover from all this, and deserve to do so, so lets use all available resources to get there as soon as practical
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