Our expert says:
M&M, suicide is often the question, but never the answer. Your children would, absolutely NEVER be any better off without you, even if their father and his new wife were available as good parents and support. You are important for them to grow optimally.
OK, you've made mistakes - everybody does ; fools don't recognize that there was a mistake, and fail to learn from them. So you followed a dream and it didn't work out. Revise the dream and the plan. The children's father does have to provide far more support for you and the cjhildren, both in cash and in emotional support.
Is there a possibility of moving back to the town where you have more friends and support, and/or to family who could also help ?
And as Liza says, whether privately or from state facilties, urgent competent care with meds and CBT should be found soon.
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