OK, it wasn't a great thing, but it wasn't too awful either - sober and with proper thought you'd never have chosen to do such a thing, especially if they had not been persuading you.
But this sort of prolonged regret, and guilt, and beating yourself up about it is a far worse decision. It happened, it wass foolish and in special circumstances. You have learned from the experience, and will surely never do it again.
What then is gained by continuing to punish yourself for it ?
You were a good person, You still are a good person. A good person who did one foolish thing i her life. Few people have done as little wrong as you - you did not hurt anyone but yourself ( and that wasn't necessary ). You have learned not to do that again - see a counsellor and work through this so you can move beyond it and start enjoying the rest of your life, again !
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