Our expert says:
You have, obviously, been through a whole series of horrible experiences, with an intermittently emotionally abusive spouse, and its hardly surprising you've been depressed and sad. You deserved to be receiving treatment much earlier. I'm guessing your treatment has been from a GP. It would be adviseable, if this is possible via medical aid or through a medical school or major state/provinciasl hospital, to see a proper specialist psychiatrist, to sort out the best medicine for you, and to see if perhaps the best form of counselling, CBT, can be available for you, too.
There is probably also an element of PND, Post-Natal Depression, in your situation - still indicating a condition that can respond well to proper treatment.
PLEASE arange as soon as practical, to see a specialist psychiatrist, as mentioned above, and get fully assessed and discuss all treatment options. It should be practical for you to be feeling a great deal better than this before long.
Let us know on the forum how this goes.
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