Our expert says:
The death of a loved one is always hard to bear, and its no different when the loss is of a pet. It can be worse when one had, for however many good reasons, and however much for the benefit of the pet, to make the decision to have her put down.
What you're describing is typical of grief, especially early grief. Its habit to expect her to be around, to look for her, to hope that there's still some way to find her. One may even briefly think one has seen her, before remembering that this can't be so. You may hear sounds that remind you of her, or think of her especially at feeding times. Home seems empty without her there to greet you. And so on.
There is no such thing as "only a dog" - as they don't lie, or cheat, they're better than most human friends, and deserve the respect we pay them.
The pain will go with time, even though it usually feels as though this will be impossible. In time one will remember all the good things about her, with pleasure and not pain.
What you did was an act of love, no less loving for being so difficult.
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