Our expert says:
I'm so sorry to hear of this, and maybe even more so, that you have waited since 2009 till now without getting the proper professional help you deserve. A pastor may be AMONG the people who can help, mainly with spiritual aspects of your grief, but they are not properly trained as a psychologist is, to understand the full depth of your grief and to help you cope with it.
You may also be experiencing "annicersary" type worsening of your unresolved grief, as your second daughter reacher the age of 12.
You need and deserve more than the help of a GP. A Psychiatrist could handle the physical aspects of a check-up to make sure there are no physical problems complicating this, which need attention in their own right. But most SA psychiatrist are far too biologically oriented, and tthus keen to prescribe drugs and don't have the nexeccary skill to handle psychotherapy. In your situation it is the latter that you need, as no drug is in itself useful in dealing with grief.
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