Our expert says:
You could only catch heat or criticism from very ignorant and prejudiced people, so don't worry about that.
YOu seem to be describing a form of gender identity problem, though it could also be a somewhat different form of disordered body image / dysmorphia ; and in various forms it isn't rare. The place to start would be to consult a good local psychologist for a thorough discussion and assessment of the situation. Sometimes the element of confusion can be usefully sorted out by psychotherapy, sometimes it becomes clear that adjustment in how you see yourself can be achieved.
Some people unwisely try to move straight towards seeking gender re-assignment surgery or some similar more major and drastic intervention - not only is that unwise because it might not be as helpful as you might imagine, but also because any surgeon with any sense, would insist on not only a psychologist's assessment but also a period of therapy before even thinking of surgery. Otherwise there is a high risk of surgery that changes the body and still leaves you even more miserable within it.
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