Our expert says:
This sounds like a relationship filled with deceit and secrets. To have not informed him you were pregnant by him, and to have aborted his child without his knowledge, was an awful thing to do. DOn't tell him solely so as to now belatedly ease your conscience ( which would be to continue to be selfish ) , but only if there is some way in which this would benefit him. It would probably only bring him unnecessary grief to do so. And it wouldn't be likely to help you stop thinking about what you did. And it would make it even harder for him to forget about you. If you don't want to continue the relationship, why do you allow him into your house, and then kiss and hug him ?
How can you accuse him of "just using you to satisfy his feelings" --- isn't that exactly what you have done to him, and what you are still doing to him ? And then precisely what you would be doing to him yet again if you were to tell him about the abortion ?
You seem to see yourself as blameless, despite your actions, and seem to blame him, though its not easy to see why, other than that it is convenient for you.
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