Our expert says:
OK. If you're telling the truth about being a liar, you have made the first really big step forward, by recognizing it and admitting it. And if it's getting to the point that it creates for you problems where uyou even briefly consider suicide, it's way past time to bring this under control. CBT, Cogniitive-behaviour Therapy, would be the best way to do this, working with a good local therapist / counsellor.
Lying, as you've found out, creates it's own momentum, with fresh lis to try to cover old ones, and the difficulty of remembering what lie you told to who ( remembering the truth is quite hard enough, without complicating it. ) You keep secrets by just not talking about them, not by lying about them.
Start by telling the truth, about your lying, to your psychologist. If she has any skill, she must surely have realized what has been going on. But if she is using analytic type methods rather than CBT, she's way out of date, and you would probably do better with a more modern counsellor
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