Our expert says:
Such an early start to a Depression is unusual, but certainly does happen, and deserves respect.
I hear your despair, but though I have quite often encountered similar levels of despair, I have rarely met anyone so despairing who could not be helped and who did not improve with proper treatment.
I understand the thought that one does not want to continue living LIKE THIS - but it's the LIKE THIS part one must and can change, not the living part of that equation.
YOu don't mention receiving any form of treatment for your depression. Presumably you have at some stage in this long experience of depression, but more important are you not under proper, expert treatment, right now ? This is beyond the capabilites of a GP, however kind - you need urgently to see a proper specialist psychiatrist and be very frank in telling him/her exactly how you feel. DO, please, get the help you so obiously deserve. It doesn't have to be like this. And do call and talk with the folks at Lifeline, too.
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