Our expert says:
Hmmm. Well, this doesn't sound like one of the routine, run-of-the-mill phenomena. But it might yield to a careful examination and assessment by an unusually good psychiatrist, perhaps an academic at one of our better University Departments of Psychiatry.
There's a whole field, generally neglected in SA and out of fashion these days when only super-large and complex drug, chemical and brain-scan research is fashionable, of Phenomenology which still interests me, which includes carefully examining all the details of unusual mental phenomena so as to more usefully identify what they are and represent.
Off the cuff, these sound to me like dissociative phenomena, like variants of day-dreaming, and it is significant and comforting that though they include seeing things than aren't really "out there", you recognize that they are not real. And the emotional components may represent more of the sadness associated with your depressions, which is perhaps more accessable on such occasions, rather than caused by them.
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